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Again
01:01
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2. |
Become
07:02
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through all the time you kept me
tapped in your world you made me
hate myself and all that I loved
fear all that I ever loved
within those years you taught me
to fear and hate, you thought me
broken, docile – slave to your whims
set up to fall for your sins
you ripped the pride from my chest
made me forget to detest
it’s time for you to fear me
it’s time for you to fear me
I feel your loss no longer
as I am growing stronger
it’s time for you to fear me
it’s time for you to fear me
hate what I am.but what I am – you made me
fear what I am, but, what I am – you made me
I have become
I smell your fear and I want
you to know right from the front
you brought me into this world
I will rip you from your world
you broke my morality
my kindness, my fragility
see what’s left stands before you
warped reflection before you
I hate more than you can hate
I now control my own fate
you will bow down before me
you will bow down before me
you had a need to control
my freedom, future, my soul
you will bow down before me
you will bow down before me
hate what I am.but what I am – you made me
fear what I am, but, what I am – you made me
I have become
was broken but now rebuilt
and yet you still have no guilt
made me in your own image
reflection’s me – your image
you did this all to yourself
your hubris has become filth
oh how the great have fallen
mot far enough, you’ve fallen
a hollow man you wanted
once predator, now hunted
you had a chance. It’s too late
you had a choice. It’s too late
I cut the strings that made me
dance for you. Now I am free
to become
to become
hate what I am.but what I am – you made me
fear what I am, but, what I am – you made me
I have become
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3. |
Glass Of Pain
05:04
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Nobody Knows
jBecause my eyes never show
All the pain that they hold inside
And I’ve never told
The ideas that unfold
When I talk to myself at night
The bottle comes out and it fizzes open
I poor myself a glass of my pain
I know that in a moment I still won’t feel right
But nothing will be wrong just the same
He doesn’t mind
Or regret how
He makes ya feel sad inside
And he doesn’t care
If you never hear
The words that may save your life
The bottle comes out and it fizzes open
I poor myself a glass of my pain
I know that in a moment I still won’t feel right
But nothing will be wrong just the same
I always close
My eyes real tight
For fear that the dark is alive
And if you escape
Temptation in time
Your one step ahead of mine
The bottle comes out and it fizzes open
I poor myself a glass of my pain
I know that in a moment I still won’t feel right
But nothing will be wrong just the same
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4. |
Scorn
05:47
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You are trying to deceive me now, but I am playing you game.
You’re loves lost forlorn angel, and your searching for someone to shame.
The threat of loneliness is what, you use to get your way.
Deception, lies and mistrust are, all of you that still remains.
Angry and alone with only hatred for my pain
I still feel your venom flowing slowly through my veins.
To make you feel the way I feel, this is what I’ve sworn..
I will make you know my scorn.
Don’t try playing this game with me, WOMAN! You know you cannot win.
And don’t think that your own shit doesn’t stink, it reeks of your bloody sins
You use you flesh to ma-ni-pu-late, me to a slave of your skin
You will wear my hate forever, as you’re trapped in the webs that you spin
Angry and alone with only hatred for my pain
I still feel your venom flowing slowly through my veins
To make you feel the way I feel, this is what I’ve sworn
I will make you know my scorn.
You forced my hand and created your own scars you wear in shame
You feel my wrath and you feel my hate, for me it was not a game.
You believed that because you were, a woman on me you had claim
You scorned me abecause you knew you could and I scorned you because of my pain.
Angry and alone with only hatred for my pain
I still feel your venom flowing slowly through my veins.
To make you feel the way I feel, this is what I’ve sworn..
I will make you know my scorn.
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5. |
86
05:28
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Sitting alone here, behind an empty glass
Looking down on me is there more I must ask
Is there more to this life?
I am fighting for my pride
I rage I scream I hate I fight
I will not quit until I fall
I will not bow I still stand tall
I am cut off all I wanted was more
All is refused me in madness I roar
Is there more to this life?
I am fighting for my pride
I rage I scream I hate I fight
I will not quit until I fall
I will not bow I still stand tall
Eighty-sixed all alone in the street
I am not done at the closed doors I scream
Is there more to this life?
I am fighting for my pride
I rage I scream I hate I fight
I will not quit until I fall
I will not bow I still stand tall
To hell with death and to hell with life
To hell with me I cannot die
You stole my pride and you ripped my heart
This is why for I have fought
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6. |
SLA
06:22
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Standing screaming in my face, breaking down my walls
You say that you’re my saving grace, that all the world should fall
Dreaming of a broken world, and standing on your grave
If we were to let chaos rule, no one would be saved.
Screaming out your viscous words, where is their true meaning?
Blind devotion is your crutch, and on it you are leaning
People who scream out these words, know nothing of our lives
If you don’t get just what you want, our freedom thus denied
Savage, obsession, on us it ruled divine
Mankind, Aggression, we’ve left that world behind
To see you weeping in disgrace, when your wish is granted
To know that it was you that caused, the pain your kin were handed
When all your loved ones look at you, as all their homes are burning
They’ll know your lack of vision caused, all their children hurting
Screaming out your viscous words, where is their true meaning?
Blind devotion is your crutch, and on it you are leaning
People who scream out these words, know nothing of our lives
If you don’t get just what you want, freedom is denied
Savage, obsession, on us it ruled divine
Mankind, Aggression, we’ve left that world behind
You scream at me that your beliefs, are the written gospel
Ignorance has made you blind, blindness made you hostile
A thousand lies you tell yourself, you think you are insightful
If your hatred has made you god, where are your disciples
You are no more than a sheep, follow those who lead you
Your leaders have betrayed us all, with the lies they feed you
Your outcries of blinded faith leave us all in doubt
If you don’t have a better way, Shut your bloody mouth
Savage, obsession, on us it ruled divine
Mankind, Aggression, we’ve left that world behind
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7. |
Shallow Pulse
05:46
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I have been so lonely, can’t feel this bottle in my hand
Tears glaze my cheeks in the mirror, sorrow dries my soul like sand
Countless times I’ve mouthed the barrel, or gripped the pills in my hand
But always I fail, oh lord I’m weak am I a man.
In the evening, I chase my demons all away
But in the morning, the face of one I can’t escape
No passions left to fight onward, a better world if I die
No sorrows for the living, for they are stronger than I
And as I stand still, a shallow pulse beating slow.
I hear the winds cry, and call me onward to my home.
Through these years I have been fighting, to myself have I lied.
Alone still I have only, my self to hold me when I cry.
The time is here for me to make peace, as I listen to the rain.
No more can I stand proudly, so now I die alone in vein.
In the evening, I chase my demons all away
But in the morning, the face of one I can’t escape
And as I stand still, a shallow pulse beating slow.
I hear the winds cry, and call me onward to my home.
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8. |
Free
04:33
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I am not afraid of what I am.
And I am free
I am free to do just what I’m told.
But am I free?
Free to slave to give the rich more wealth
Still, I am free.
We are all fed full of lies. Bullshit,
I am not free.
Freedom, but remember your freedom
Freedom, but what’s left of your freedom
Freedom, truth looking down on us
Freedom, were we ever free at all.
All of us are told that we are free.
And we believe
Free to stay inside our social class
Yet we believe.
Most of us are paid at just enough
Just to survive
Multi nationals have made us slaves
Decide your lives
Freedom, but remember your freedom
Freedom, but what’s left of your freedom
Freedom, truth looking down on us
Freedom, were we ever free at all.
Bring it down
If we do not do just what we’re told
Then we will starve
If we don’t believe in what we’re told
We’re behind bars.
Poverty and prejudice are tools
Used by the rich
To keep us at each others throats so that -
The rich stay rich.
Freedom, but remember your freedom
Freedom, but what’s left of your freedom
Freedom, truth looking down on us
Freedom, were we ever free at all.
We are not free
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9. |
Don't Tell William
02:53
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damned alligator bit my hand off!
- oh my god!
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10. |
For You
04:02
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Stand beside the cliff and loose my mind
Will I jump or will I run
The setting sun is growing red in my eyes
I want it over, I want it done
I will leave you alone in this place
I was there once, and found my hate for you
Hit the wall now. Broken hands are mine
I feel like fire running from the light
She found it easier to give me lies
I didn’t feel my heart begin to die
I will leave you alone in this place
I was there once, and found my hate for you
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11. |
Slave...
03:43
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again
help me
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12. |
Unclean (bonus track)
05:02
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I see the people stare and quickly look away
I see their faces turn and some begin to pray
Freedom of what to think, but no freedom to say
Branded a traitor, for questioning the king
Viewed as a leper, I won’t let myself be saved
Kept from the village because they say I’m unclean
My thought is a sickness and contagious to the free
But you won’t recognize, there’s more demons like me
I will not betray myself
Keeping my thoughts in a cell
Waist my freedom like you waist your freedom
I see the people stare and quickly turn away
I see their faces turn and some begin to pray
Freedom of what to think, but no freedom to say
Branded a traitor, for questioning the king
I will not betray myself
Keeping my thoughts in a cell
Waist my freedom like you waist your freedom
I will not betray myself
Leper, Unclean
Leper, Sickness
Leper, Treason
Leper, Freedom
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13. |
Bleed (bonus track)
04:08
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Why don’t you join us in reality
Dropped bombs on people’s heads won’t set them free
This life is just a bridge in passing
Can you pay the toll?
I will not bleed
Why do you listen to the fear and hate
Control with violence - has become your fate
This life is just a bridge in passing
Can you pay the toll?
I will not bleed
I will not
You bleed, we all bleed, and we all bleed red
Your life is fallacy until we are dead
This life is just a bridge in passing
Can you pay the toll?
I will not bleed
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XEX Boise, Idaho
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- Bryan Maddox (guitar)
- Alfred de Varona (bass)
- Pete Wadams (drums)
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